As I sit here I reflect over the past month. A month ago I was leaving Cairns to head back to Sydney. I was so excited about my future in Australia and getting a job and visa to stay here. I knew there would be lots of paperwork to be completed and money to be handed out, but I was up for the challenge. Those that know me know I don't back down from a challenge, and when I want something I do everything I can to achieve that want. However the past few days I've felt quite defeated. I have applied to over 40 positions in social work, and have had 2 interviews with 2 more later this week. I haven't heard back from the positions I've interviews for, so I assume that means they went with someone else. I know that not being a permanent resident is a negative factor in getting jobs, but I feel I may have underestimated the importance of being a resident and how much that is negatively affecting me. I am trying to stay positive and tell myself that it will all fall into place. The interviews this week are for roles in a behavioral school, which is exactly what I want to do. I'm anxiously waiting to get a job, and on top of that, waiting to hear back from the social work board in Australia to see if they find my qualifications acceptable to apply for the skilled visa. I don't wait well, I don't like being patient, especially right now when I feel so vulnerable. My life is in the hands of these companies that are looking to see if I can bring something special, unique, or important to this country. These agencies have to find my qualifications and my character a better match than a permanent resident. Can I be that person? I worry that I will not be offered any of these jobs and I will have to head back to the states. I will have to leave this wonderful country that I have started to plan my life in, and move back to a place that I struggles to be myself and struggled to feel accepted for who I am.
The waiting game has commenced and I am trying to stay positive and patient, but it's not easy. I will update with information, when I have new information to give.
Bye for now <3
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